I am the bad tenant - need legal advice - added mental health issue?

I have lived in a duplex for six years. For the first four years, everything was fine. I have been in treatment for severe depression/anxiety disorder since 2000. For the past two years, it has been getting worse and I am afraid that my house bore the brunt. I was completely unable to clean my house or take out trash for almost two years.





Here is the current situation. I have stepped up my treatment, I have admitted to my therapist the situation, something I had been unable to do before. I was not evicted from my house and the rent is up to date but I am now living in a new house.





The problem is, I cannot get everything out of the old house. It is trashed. There is no structural damage aside from a hole in one bedroom wall (drywall) which was a complete accident and will be simple to fix. There is trash everywhere. I have tried almost daily to get over there and clean it out. I have no local support system, no close family and even my church was unable to help, which really upset me. Because of my mental health issues, I cannot even walk in the front door of the old house without dissolving into tears.





I have written a letter to my landlord which I will deliver along with the key this Saturday. I am taking full responsibility for the cleaning and repairs and am offering to set up a payment plan to repay them for any costs beyond the security deposit.





I have my new landlord as well as a counselor coming over to make regular home visits to the new house to make sure this doesn't happen again. I am doing everything I can think of to make amends.





I am scared that my old landlord will get really nasty over this, and while I wouldn't blame him if he did, I am hoping he will take my situation into consideration and let me make this right.





I would love to hear from tenants and landlords alike on this subject as well as any advice from mental health professionals.





What are my rights? What are my responsibilities?I am the bad tenant - need legal advice - added mental health issue?
Docker is right. If you have already offered to take care of the cleaning responsiblity, there have got to be several businesses in your area that will go in there and just haul your stuff away.





I know exactly how you feel. Housework was never my strong suit. i had a baby in 2002, then a hospitalization in 2007....my house too was awful awful awful. i would sit in the middle of it and cry because i was too overwhelmed to clean. So, I bought another house and started over. That was almost 4 months ago.I am the bad tenant - need legal advice - added mental health issue?
hire some maids to clean it up, like marry maids, or some other cleaning company.